Tuesday, February 28, 2006

Am I mindful?

YEA! It has finally happened. I have made it back to life with children...I am starting on Monday to be a pre-school teacher. I can't wait! Back to a life of sniffles, runny noses, potty breaks and nap time But I can't complain, I love every minute of it.
However, I have to remember that everything I say and do will be copycatted again and remembered and taken home to parents' listening ears. But, as a Christian I should be mindful of my choices anyways. I am just more conscious around little ones I think. A good reminder to myself that everyone watches you and critiques you when you are a Christian and we should all be mindful of what we communicate with words and actions. My friend wrote on her Blogg yesterday and quoted Psalm 39 "I said, 'I will watch my ways and keep my tongue from sin; I will put a muzzle on my mouth'..." vs 1. This is what I will have to do. Muzzle myself. What a great thought...I have been working at that anyways and trying to be more nice to people so this was a challenging thought.

Friday, February 10, 2006

Perfectly Willing?

I have been reading a good book, by Jan Karon called "At home in Mitford" just easy reading...the kind where you don't have to think. It's about Father Tim and his life as a Preist and his parrish, friends, what little love life he has with his new neighbor, his giant dog & a boy named Dooley who continually CRACKS me up! (I recommend this series of books, they are sweet and really good.)

In one of the paragraphs the main character, Father Tim asks his neighbor, Cynthia, "Would you agree that we must be willing to thank God for every trial of our faith no matter how severe for the greater strength it produces?" The neighbor responds, " I'm perfectly willing to say it but I'm continuely unable to do it."

I whole-heartedly agree with her! I am perfectly willing but half-heartedly do it. No matter my intentions on being thankful, I grumble at my trials. Do I grow stronger? Does it increase my faith? Absolutely!!! Thanking God is easy when times are easy. Thanking God during the hard times is at my best effort pathetic. I half-heartedly give thanks if sometimes even at all. I am working on the thankful thing and remembering even when times are hard, God is giving me the strenght to make it through and allowing hard times to strengthen me and my faith. I MUST thank God for everything, accepting it at the same time. No giving thanks out of one side of my mouth while grumbling with the other side of it. We all do it. I just need to put myself in the right place and frame of mind and respect God, submit to God, and realize HE is GOD...not me. He knows best and has put me in the circumstances I am in for a reason. HE knows what He's doing, not me...that's why He's perfect!
As I sit here today I am trying to be thankful. I have much to be thankful for, but am going through a trial and hearing what I definately do not want to hear. It is going to be hard to accept this trial. But accept it I must and trust God that He knows better than what I want. Would I agree to thank God for everything? I am trying my best.