Thursday, April 24, 2008

My Garden

I have been reading a lot lately. I have been working on a book that is really difficult for me to digest. It is “The Problem of Pain” by C.S. Lewis. He is great but you have to really reflect on what he says and not read straight through. I am still reading the Mitford Series by Jan Karon which I love. The person in the book Father Tim always quotes scripture and poets. He said something that really made me think a few days ago. He stated that in life when changes come, “first comes the wilt, then the settling and then the growth spurt.” I am starting a garden and he is a gardener and that is true of plants. But it is true for us too! I have inevitably understood this and realize as I look back at our move back to Indiana I wilted at first. I was used to good friends and a great church and when uprooted you have to re-grow some roots. Then you go through the settling period. You have some good roots growing deep and are making friends and getting adjusted. The growth spurt is now what I am waiting on. I knew there would be adjustment and have even wondered at times if we did the right thing…but we know we did we just had to wilt a little before we grow again.

Sunday, April 20, 2008

9 Years

Today Nathan & I have been together for 9 years! Here's to 90 more!

Monday, April 14, 2008

Still learning about patience

I am still learning a ton about patience! I really am trying to be patient, but it is so hard because in my timing, almost two years is forever! To God that's another story. I have no other reason to not have what I want other than it is not God's timing and that is really hard too! I love God and want to patiently wait on Him and His timing but I am really bad at it after a while. I have still given my delima up to Him and have not taken it back, just questioning His timing? Asking things like "Are you sure? Still not yet?" But why can others have what I want & I cannot and they may not deserve it as much as me? To which he answered with verses in Job. How can you compete with Job? (my daily reading was in Job.) Plus who am I really that I deserve it any more than anyone else? God has a way of taking you off your high horse when you are in the wrong. I am not the only one with this struggle and just keep praying He will show me His way and I am sure His plan is perfect and will all make sense when it comes to pass, but the waiting is the most difficult part. He knows this is my struggle. I prayed for patience when I first came to God in college and He has been instilling it in me ever since. (*note to self: watch what you ask for God to show, because you will surely receive it)

Monday, April 07, 2008

The Trap

Okay. I went to Target this week on Thursday to get general household goods. Cleaning supplies, laundry soap, the usual once every other month kind of supplies then tossed in a few groceries. I SPENT $100! Then I had to go back again on Saturday for groceries that Nate wanted me to get and some personal hygiene supplies, deodorant, shampoo, etc. That was almost another $100! It is a trap. Even if you buy what you need there are miscelaneousI HAVE TO STAY OUT OF TARGET!!! The other dangerous store right now is LOWES. We have spent over $300 in the last three weeks. Of course we had a leak in our ceiling that we had to get supplies for and then there is the fertilizer, grass seed and gardening supplies we need. We are going to plant a veggie garden this spring. I really don’t know how well it will go, but we are giving it our best. I really do not have a green thumb. All I know is it is not cheap to start. We have bunnies in our yard and I really want us to eat our green beans and other veggies and not have them as a buffet for the bunnies! So we had to get chicken wire & stakes as well. But I keep thinking I WILL HAVE FRESH VEGGIES!
All in all and a ton of money later, I have decided I am going to buy stock in Target & Lowes!